I dont know what to do with myself.
I feel like this downward spiral is crippling my ability to do work, focus on my work, get any of my work done. I’ve gotten nothing done with two days off. I hate myself.
I also feel like I should be done reaching out to people, because I get nothing in return.
I feel like if I reach out to anyone, I’m being too forward and no one wants to associate with me, and they think I’m socially inept (probably am). But no one in Philly is ever going to reach out to me, which sucks.
It’s the last semester of my senior year. I should be having fun and partying with people in my major. But no one wants to hang out with me, and it’s heartbreaking. And people who might be willing don’t because they’d rather hang out with the more popular people. I hate that popularity is still a thing in college.
Aren’t people supposed to find their niche in college? Isn’t there supposed to be someone for everyone?
God, why the fuck do I have no one?
Fuck.
